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[Saturday
November 5th, 2005] |
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ya i kno i havent wrote in this thing for ages but i havent had time. i'm really focused on school this year n now softball is around the corner n i want to be serious in that also. Last night was the last football game of the season n im very happy to of spent it with walla (my best friend in the world). she's an amazing girl, listens to all my problems and trys her hardest to look like she cares n i kno she does n wants to help. but i was so down last night i felt like everything hit me all at once which it kind of did in a way. i'm THE worst at making decisions. i cannot decide for the hell of me what i want to do. i honestly need to sit down n fix everything here. it just too crazy n im so unhappy at this point it upsets me day after day. i just want to move n get everything away n only care about the few that truly mean alot to me. by the way we went out to alva today n found gorgeous pieces of property at really good prices. my dad is really serious about moving out there n i pray to god we do. lets me get away from alot of things n not have to worry so much anymore. but of course i'll miss it here. ya well this is a boring entry n i dont kno why, well i do but can't understand why, but i've just been so down n i dont wanna say depressed but not the happy go lucky girl i used to. i was tellin jenn last ngiht that i wish it was last year. this exact time last year. i had so many friends n so much fun. it was incredible. well i guess i'll go call ryan cuz im giogn to bed. mayb we'll go back to alva tmr morning n look so more for land. i want to live out there in the worst way!
alright pz kids
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[Wednesday
September 14th, 2005] |
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welp....
today i leave to go see my dad!! im so happy hes coming home. thursday we're goign to the base to see what hes been living like n u kno do some stuff around there and eat their food yuk! then at night is the big family dinner up there n friday is the acctual graduation. thank god it's over with. 3 months is a long ass time. im ready for him to come home anyways. i missed him so much!
ohh and saturday we rented out a resort on Folley beach in South Carolina and we're gunna stay there all day Saturday and most of sunday (i'm gettin a skimboard!!! prolly a pink or blueish one!! mayb)n then sunday late at night i'll be home!!! back to school on monday until thanksgiving we leave again ha! i love it.
right now im tryin to do this german packet Hissam gave to me its so freakin long. n my flgith will be leaving soon. c ya guys later!
iloveryan!!!!
later-
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[Saturday
August 13th, 2005] |
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haven't updated in a really long time. i guess cause nothings been goign on. schools good. still wish it was summer, but what are you gunna do. we need school. uhmm well i'm tryin to get all these pictures i've wanted to post forever but they just don't wanna scan. so i'll try later. me n jennifer have been attempting to go up to the field every day, well thats what we would of like to do but it's been raining so damn much. i can't wait for softball i wish it was season right now! n-e ways ya theres def. nothing to update about. and its lightening really bad so i think im guna get off this computer.
later
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[Monday
August 1st, 2005] |
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WOW! so how fun was this weekend....
too much fun lol
i was so suprised how nice the condo was. nothing more than perfect!
the beach was so nice all 3 days and the walks at night like our mile walk just to get the best pic of the sunset n miss siebert descides to waste the film b4 we get there. stacy in a dumpster was incredibly funny, ryan and mike being there was great. all of us just staying the night together n waking up early to go on the beach. gettin tan baby!! the nonstop rock we were listnening to. god! i love it! it was def. worth it every lil bit. so much fun. i learned how to skimboard. fell a few times but i can say i got the hang of it. now me n stac are gunna learn to surf. NEXT SUMMER WE ARE LEARNING! am i right sieb? lol well it seemed like everyone had an awsome time. im so glad everyone was able to make it n thanks so much for coming n making it such an amazing weekend.
i love my friends and boyfriend so much! i'll try n post pictures later....
yay my birthday's tmr! can't wait n my dad comes home this weekend... so exciting!!
xoxo
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[Sunday
July 17th, 2005] |
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What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
such a good song!
welp today was sucha boring day!
i washed all 3 cars n got a pretty good tan
but may i add i washed em all by myself. nobody thought it was nessacary to help hmmmmff.
my uncles birthday was today so they came over n i got to see my baby cousin charlie...awww hes so cute. me n my mother r goign over there thurs to watch him while they go out. can't wait till he gets lil older n is able to notice things. so cute!
ryan got back today from surfing. gosh man they had a freakin party up there. wish i could of gone. he just left a lil bit ago. i love that kid so much!!
alright well i have to work tmr so i'm gettin ready for bed.
xolater
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July 15th, 2005] |
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ALL ABOUT U...
+ Known as: Angela-Ang-Angie
+ City you live in: Cape Coral
+ Birthday: August 2nd
+ School: North Fort Myers High
+ Religion: caltholic
+ Shoe size: 8
+ Hair color: brown
+ Bad Habits: ...
+ Fears: losing one you love-dieing
HAVE YOU EVER...
+ Cheated on someone? no
+ Been Cheated on? once
+ Fallen off the bed? yes
+ Fallen for a relative? no
+ Broke someone`s heart? yes
+ Had your heart broken? ya but life goes on
+ Had a dream come true? yes
+ Done something you regret? prob. but i try not to have any regrets
+ Cheated on a test? yes
CURRENTLY...
+ Wearing? ae tank-blue shorts
+ Listening to? uhmm something my brother is listening to on tv
+ Located? my living room
+ Chatting with? no one
+ Watching? whatever this is my brother is watching
+ Should REALLY be doing? eating dinner
DO YOU...
+ Brush your teeth? of course...
+ Like anybody? ryan duhh
+ Have any piercing? my ears
+ Drive? no
+ Drink? ya...
+ Smoke? no sir
+ Have a cellphone? yup
+ Have a pager? nope
FRIENDS...
+ Who is your best? i'd have to say jenn ry n satc
+ Who do you hate? i have 1 or 2 on the top of my head but i'll keep that to myself
+ Who is the shyest? ???
+ Who is the most talkative? jennifer
+ Who laughs the most? we all do
+ Who have you known the longest? danielle
+ Who have you known the shortest? stacy
+ Who do you miss the most? a few girls i thought we're once true
+ Who do you turn to for personal problems? jenn ryan or stacy
+ Do you hang out with the opposite sex? ya...there seems to be too many complications with the same sex and i
+ Do you trust your friends? yes just a few tho
+ Are you a good friend? i hope so
+ Can you keep a secret? if it important
+ Are you forgiving to your friends? ya most of the time
+ Have you ever cussed any of them out? uhh yes
+ Got physical with them in a fight? me and stacy have gotten into it a few times lol
THE LAST PERSON YOU...
+ Hugged? ryan
+ Kissed? ryan
+ IMed? jessica
+ Talked to on the phone? mother
+ Yelled at? dominick
+ Beat up? dom
+ Fell in love with? ryan =)
+ Went out with? ryan
PERSONAL...
+ What do you want to be when you grow up? something in the medical field...possibly a medical examiner
+ What has been the best day of your life so far? couldn't say
+ What comes first in your life? my family
+ Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush? yup...ryan
+ What/Who are you most scared of? losing someone i love
+ What do you usually think about before you go to bed? many things..differ on different nights
+ Did you lose someone you really loved? no,and lets keep it that way
+ How many times have you fallen deeply in love? once
+ Love your friends? yup
+ Would you ever go out with a friend? already am
FAVORITE...
+ Store: hollister
+ Song(s): "the best" "let me go" "you & me" "i don't wanna miss a thing"
+ Sports to play: softball biatch!!
+ Ice Cream Flavor: vanilla
+ Fruit: strawberries-grapes
+ Candy: anything
+ Holiday: christmas-new years-my birthday
+ Day of the Week: fridays and sundays
+ Time: nighttime
+ Color: turquiose-pink-green
+ Flower: white roses
DO YOU...
+ Like to give hugs? of course
+ Like to give kisses? ya
+ Do u prefer pecks or french? both
+ Like to walk in the rain? yes
+ Prefer black or blue pens? blue
+ Like to travel? yes
+ Sleep on your side, stomach, or back? stomach
+ Think you're attractive? you can answer that
+ Have a goldfish? nope
+ Ever have the falling dream? yes i hate em
+ Have stuffed animals? what girl doesn't?
+ What do you usually dream about? crazy things
+ Get flowers from friends or boyfriends? my boyfriend
+ Cook? uhmm i don't think you'd like it if i did
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT...
+ Abortion: i don;t like it
+ Sex: it's your own personal choice if your ready
+ Smoking: i hate it!!
+ Eating Disorders: horrible
+ Tattoos: too many make u look bad
+ Piercings: i like em to an extent
+ Your best friends: i love them
+ Anyone else? uhmm....
THIS OR THAT...
+ Pierced nose or tongue? noses
+ MTV or BET? mtv
+ 7th Heaven or Dawson's Creek? 7th heaven
+ Sugar or salt? sugar
+ Silver or gold? gold
+ Chocolate or flowers? flowers
+ Color or Black-and-white photos? black and white seem moer memorable
+ M&M's or Skittles? skittles
+ Stay up late or sleep in? stay up late nad sleep in =)
+ Hot or cold? cold!!
+ Sun or moon? sun most def.
+ Left or Right? does it really matter..
+ 10 Acquaintances or one best friend? def. one best friend
+ Wonder or amazement? amazement
+ Lights on or off: out of course
so i was realli bored .... lol
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[Friday
July 8th, 2005] |
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I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!! <3
wouldn't be able to write how much i feel for him
nor explain it in words =)
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[Wednesday
July 6th, 2005] |
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IM SO HAPPY HES SO CUTE. HES GOT BLUE EYES N BLONDISH HAIR....SO FAR PROLLY CHANGE ONCE HES A LIL OLDER. N MY AUNT N UNCLE ARE SOOO HAPPY N EXCITED. THEY NAMED HIM Charles Michael Ferrante AFTER MY DAD!! ..HOW CUTE.. I WAS HOLDING HIM TODAY IN THE HOSPITAL N HE WAS SMILING N TRYIN TO KEEP HIS EYES OPEN. UHHH ADORABLE. CAN'T WAIT TO BABYSIT LOL =)
WELL I START WORKING MONDAY. WHO KNOWS WUT THAT'LL BE LIKE, HOPEFULLY NOT BORING! BUT IM WORKING MONDAY-FRIDAY 9-2PM. YA IT DOES TAKE UP MOST OF THE MORNING N AFTERNOON BUT O WELL NOT LIKE I'VE BEEN DOING MUCH LATELY ANYWAYS.
DAD LEAVES FRIDAY MORNING FOR THE fbi ACADEMY. HES GUNNA BE GONE FOR 10 WEEKS.... UHOH! I'M GUNNA MISS HIM! =( IT'S GUNNA BE KINDA WIERD HIM NOT HERE FOR 3 MONTHS. OH GOD! MY BROTHER IS GOIGN TO BE WAY OUT OF CONTROL!!! I MEAN OMG! NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO THAT....NO SIR! BUT I DUNNO IT'LL BE AN EXPERIENCEI GUESS U CAN SAY.
HMM SO JENN N I NEED TO GET TOGETHER BEFORE SHE LEAVES again...MAY I ADD... N YA WE NEED TO HAVE SOME FUN.... WELL I NEED TO TALK TO RYAN! HAVEN'T REALLY TALKED TO HIM ALL DAY =( I FEEL BAD CUZ I REALLY WANTED TO GO TO HIS GAME TONIGHT N PLANS GOT MESSED UP BUT O WELL WUT U GUNNA DO... IT HAPPENS... JUST AS LONG AS I GET TO GO TO HIS NEXT ONE WEN HE'S PITCHING!!!! CHEER HIM ON (YOU KNOW!!) WELL I DONT KNOW WHERE THE HELL HE IS BUT I'M GUNNA GO...
STACY... HOPE YA HAVE FUN IN ST. LOUIS! BE SAFE!!!!! GIMME A CALL WEN U GET BACK! LOVE YA!
ALRIGHT KIDS IM OUT
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[Tuesday
July 5th, 2005] |
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Im so happy my aunts going in for sergery and having her new lil BOY at 5 well shes having a C-section so its a set time. makes it so much easier. but i can't wait! their first baby... how freakin cute!
So i think ryan's gunna come over for a lil bit then hes gunna go to work n im gunan go to the hospital....... n then after that im getting the cutest thing ever i'd tell but i don't want jenn to know yet lol can't say but omg its adorable eeeee!!!!!!!
wow wut an exciting day lol well im gunna go pops jus came home for lunch so i'll go talk to him for a lil bit.
xoxo'
c ya =)
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July 3rd, 2005] |
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so last night
the family went out to eat n of course with all their friends and kids. it was alright ryan came with n met everyone. played pool n had fun. then after that we wanted to go and do something but couldn't think of anything we wanted to do so we just decided to be lazy ass' n stay home and watch a movie.
ya so we watched Anchorman(sp?)
i didn't think it was that funny at all.
i dunno about anyone else lol.
but i started falling asleep.
well i talked to Danielle today!!! i miss hanging out with her sometimes. but shes one of the few friends that i know will always be there. shes really sick too! sounds horrible. but other than that she was allowed to take the truck to pick up matt from work n we saw justin. talked to him for a while then came home n did shit.
tmr is the 4th!! n i guess i'm going to be here all day with the family again, not that it's a bad thing. but Ryan's going somewhere with his sister and Jennifer is away in Connecticut, but it's not like she wants to spend time with her dear old friend anyways.
oh man! my aunt Amy's having her baby on the 5th
i cannot wait! babies are so cute ahhh!
alright well i'm going to help mother with dinner
c ya
ohh ya Jenn i can't wait for you to get home!!
i want to show you something that we got yesterday
well we didnt get it yesterday but will soon eeeee
CANNOT WAIT!!!! i'm such a spoiled lil bitch
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[Thursday
June 30th, 2005] |
wow most def. not
thats weiird...
i don't like these quizzes no more lol
well im gettin ready to go out
c ya
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[Tuesday
June 28th, 2005] |
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I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
'Cause I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
I don't wanna miss a thing
<3 GOSH MAN! I LOVE THIS SONG, IT EXPLAINS ALOT. I THINK ABOUT ALL THE STU[PID SHIT THATS BEEN GETTING ME MAD THESE PAST FEW DAYS. BUT ALL THAT CONFUSION CAN NEVER GET IN THE WAY OF WHAT I HAVE RIGHT NOW. IT'S THEE BEST;MAKES ME FEEL THE GREATEST. AND I KNOW NOTHING CAN GET IN BETWEEN IT! WELL YA I KNOW I KNOW YOU'ALL AREN'T GOING TO KNOW WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT BUT I HAD TO GET THAT OFF MY SHOULDERS <3
ps. ->>
i have no idea why this is all in one big paragraph. o well it's still able to read.
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[Tuesday
June 28th, 2005] |
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wow so im really happy to be home n sleep in my own bed n see my friends again! but i forgot how hot n humid it is here omg its nasty man. i want the sun to be out all day so i can layout, this rain is gettin on my nerves. but ne ways im so excited i get to hang out with stacy thursday. CAN'T WAIT! lol well this entry is a lil lame n im gettin ready to eat.
laterr <3
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June 15th, 2005] |
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hello!
hows everyone doing?
i hope u'all are haveing fun cuz at the moment or past few days i've been kinda bored. but i went to a YANKEE GAME last night. it was amazing! so much fun its crazy. def. recomend going to one lol i got to see a-rod yay!! not like he did too much but o well it was alot of fun. i think friday me n my cousin are goign to the beach again. the beach here is realli nice all except the water which is like 50 degrees no kidding. but o well we'll get some sun. n i think sunday we're gunna b leaving to go to penn. so i'll b on the computer alot there being that my phone don't get any service. so ya in other news.. last night wen we were leaving the stadium like 3 different black guys were yelling at me u kno tryin to get my attention n omg i hate that its so annoying n uhhh kinda scary with wut they looked like too... lol u should of seen how quick i ran over n started walkin besides my dad i hate how they do that shit n half of the ppl there were drunk so..... who knows its crazy. hmm nothing else realli has gone on. i kinda miss it down there. i wanna get back home n hang out with my friends n see my dog n my wonderful boyfriend ryan!! oh man n it hasnt even been a week yet. i hope it goes by a little more faster. i feel like i accomplished something today lol i didtn eat much at all but for some reason iw asnt hungry which is very suprising all i had was 1 waffle n pasta for dinner. n then me n my cousin wen walking for a half hour n then went up to get my grandpa an italian ice n walked back. i did alot of walking but i kinda need it cuz it is summer and....
SUMMER=LAZYNESS
LAZYNESS=TV & EATING
TOO MUCH EATING=NO GOOD
so ya def. miss softball n i need ot so some for exercising. but i'll save tyhat for wen u get back lol. well i am guna go straighten my cusins hair so i'll try n update before i leave.
laterr
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[Monday
June 6th, 2005] |
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i didnt do anything really today but clean out my room..god i was so bored! i got rid of so many things i got so agravated with my closet i took everything out of it. so of course i went through everything n took stuff out that i dont want no more and cloths that i dont wear u kno all that shit that sits in ur closet forever not knowing wut to do with it. so now i can say my closet is pretty much spotless!!
ryan came over for a while after baseball n help me sort some stuff out. then we went swimming. that was the first time i was in my pool i think since last summer. n it was so cold from all this rain we've had. but thats ok it was fun. well im realizing how boring its summer is starting to get. well im leaving soon so mayb it'll b sum fun up there. prolly more boring. o well im gunna watch a movie n go to sleep.
laterr
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[Sunday
June 5th, 2005] |
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omg yesterday it really didn't rain at all i was so happy i woke up n saw the sun but of course by the time i got out deanna n i took the kids to sunsplash it turned cloudy again. my luck ehh. but o well we dropped them off home n took a ride to target....got another bathingsuit its realli cute hopefully alot of ppl dont have it like my other one.
ok well last night was so fun let me explain lol my dads friends were over with their kids n i can't stand kids to begin with n oh lord were they obnoxious!!! i felt bad cuz i wasnt allowed to go no where so ryan came over n they were playin with him n wow i thoguht i was gunna kill someone. they were out of control runnin all through the house jumping on the couches..MY BED!! n making such a mess. (so god damn annoying!). ne ways so after dinner my dad decides he wants to be mr. mechanic and fix everything. first tried to get half a key out of deanna's ignition that broke off. that didnt go good n then had his friends over to fix their jeep. well nothing was fixed until almost 2 o'clock last night. i was sitting in bed listening to them rev the car all night. holy shit let me tell u!!
so i didnt get to bed until like 2 n then woke back up at 4 with cramps...and had to wake up at 8 to get ready for the shower....fun!!! -not-
so today was more fun well except for my cramps...uhh i felt like i was dieing i wanted to cry they hurt so bad! but my aunts baby shower was today. aww its so cute!!! can't wait till she has her baby. but uhmm now i think im goign to go call ryan n see wut hes up to hopefully not working.
laterrr
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[Friday
June 3rd, 2005] |
hey dudes!!
hows everyones summer going??? so far its ehhhh alright. kinda boring. but today i went to the mall for what seemed like forever but it was fun i got sum cute things, ate so much and got to hang out with my kelli kel so it was worth all 5 hours lol. but ne ways tmr my cousins are coming in n me n deanna were suppose to take them all to sunsplash for the day to give them something to do n for us to layout but it don't look like thats gunna work. this rain is nuts it makes the day even boringer. welp i got sum exciting news well for me atleast..yesterday me n ryan had been goign out for a month. it seems longer but nope jus a month. but this week n next hes goin to this college thing for baseball so im not gunna see him that much n then next weekend i leave for New York so...hmmmm who knows its gunna be so boring up there this year mayb it'll go by quick. i hope. ok kids im goin to watch tv n go to bed so ttyl
<3ang
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[Thursday
June 2nd, 2005] |
hey guys its angela i jus made a new journal
don't worry it's not done it'll look better once im finished
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